"The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them."
@23 hours ago with 740 notes
Because sometimes I feel like I’m drowning in things and maybe making some reasonable goals will HALP.
-Write a draft of my lit review. Just, like, do it. My laptop decided to quit it’s career as a functioning laptop so I have a new shiny thing with 4 pages of a lit review on it. No excuses.
-Brew more research beer. Learn from previous mistakes. Don’t panic.
-Pick a few places to apply for jobs. (Sidebar: I just got an ~official offer~ from a big beer company that rhymes with Shmiller Shmoors and even though I didn’t really think that was my dream, they’re offering an insane amount of training and experience and basically wherever I want to go within the company.) I am ALL about not closing any doors and I want to make sure I gave myself all of the possible opportunities before I pick a place to work.
-Meditate. 3 x a week (or more!). Not lofty. It’s really funny to just watch my brain spaz out and for 10 minutes feel like I don’t have to be a part of it.
-Be kind to M when he gets home from work and commuting. I know, I’m tired too, but I can at least get off the futon to say hi.
-Smile more. Appreciate the state of things. Be cool with confusion and discomfort. Or at least make an effort.
@4 days ago with 6 notes
@5 days ago with 12 notes
So I got to hang out with goodbyekellybelly tonight and it was AMAZING. So much talk about beer, boys, ~adult life~ and yoga. Plus! Colorado beers on happy hour. Just the best. <3
"Friendzoned again!" I shout, pumping my fist in the air. I made a new friend today. Today is a good day.
@1 week ago with 106007 notes
@1 week ago with 15 notes
#coffee date #travels #opportunities #GRATITUDE
Airport coffee date
I’m a little excited because I just landed in Denver and am waiting for my best friend J to land in a few hours and we have 2 days to mess around Fort Collins and I get to see my most best friend in the WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD and it’ll be like 48 hours of actual coffee dates. I feel like M knows everything about my whole life without me even saying it which is amazing but I haven’t had a coffee date in a loooooooong time. The closest thing is the COPIOUS amount of beer I’ve been drinking while getting to know a few people from the Master Brewers course I’m TAing.
On that note, I’ve been drinking too much. I hit a nice pace recently where I would have a beer for enjoyment probably every other night and then one night a week of ~indulgence~ but this last week has beer (HA meant to type “been” and tried like three times and still failed) just beer-palooza.
On the bright side, I haven’t been intaking 4-10 cups of coffee a day. BUT M & I did demolish almost 4 boxes of girlscout cookies. Vices, my friends. The struggle is real.
But really, who cares? Beer or coffee or cookies or ~calories~ or whatever, if that’s my biggest problem, I’m ok.
Unfortunately, it does not feel like my biggest problem. I don’t know if it’s hormones or exhaustion or what but I’ve cried almost every day over something silly and I can’t stop thinking about WHERE THE HECK TO GO NEXT. My life in Davis is AMAZING. I feel respected for the work I do, I have recognition in the beer world, my future right now is absolutely full of opportunities and instead of being grateful for it I’m crying over a time when I’ll have to leave. I’m so scared that anything I choose will ruin 99% of the opportunities I have. I am an opportunity hoarder.
Speaking of…I probably get to go to England this summer to TA another beer class for my professor. & I had my meeting with the TEDx people and it looks very promising that I will be doing a presentation at their UC Davis event. & I’m interviewing at a big company on Tuesday and even though I’m not sure it’s what I want, it’s very intriguing. & I am meeting with Sierra Nevada next week to present my research so far and hopefully pick up some fresh hops for MOAR brewing. & my yoga classes are growing and I feel like I’ve finally found my voice as a teacher (however fleeting). I am not a boastful person by nature and it makes me so uncomfortable to post stuff here and see it all written out but I need to learn to be grateful for this amazing place in my life. I need to learn to be here and stop already lamenting its temporality. Who knows, life could get even better.
I’m grateful for the people I have in my life, for M for putting up with me this last week, for you guys if you read this or just looked at the goofy selfie.