this blog is: me. yoga things. food i eat. friends. beer i love. dog obsession. daily photos.i am: yogini;
beer drinker/future brewing scientist;
health food nut;
also regular old delicious food nut;
It was the first day that I was practicing half primary series, trying so hard to remember the sequence and everything I learned in standing poses and build build build. As we set up for half lotus paschimottanasana, I called one of the teachers over because half lotus is so far from being a thing for me I don’t know what to do. When I told him my hips just don’t externally rotate, he looked me in the eyes and said, “You are not inflexible in that joint. You’re just not. Stop telling yourself that you are.” And that was it, that was what I needed, and as much as I think I’m getting out of my own way, it really took that moment for me to realize why I never see progress in my hips. He also advised that instead of getting frustrated when that pose comes up, to simply repeat, “I’m stretching. I’m stretching.” until it happens, and I stretch.
This training is a lot. It’s a lot of yoga, a lot of practice, a lot of self-inquiry. I can’t believe I’ve only been here 5 days.
Reminder: get out of your own way.@5 days ago with 11 notes
I see things in increments of one year, it takes until one year later for me to feel like I can move forward. I’m officially one year out from the last time I did something that hurt someone close to me. Before that it seemed like an endless cycle of feeling like I had a handle on my life and then falling prey to my own lack of judgment, without worrying about how it would affect the people I cared about the most. What broke the cycle was this: also about a year ago, full of whiskey and butterflies, I confessed my feelings to M.
I am thankful for second chances, for his acceptance of the person I was and am, and for a year of support and growth and love.
I am also thankful for Dee, for my yoga practice, for my students/community, for my research mentor, for my family, for my (best) friends in Colorado and California alike, for Thanksgiving leftovers, for beer’s science and culture, for the opportunity I have to do a teacher training in LA.
Gratitude leads to happiness, not the other way around. <3@1 week ago with 16 notes
And really, just stop saying “should” to yourself about your thoughts and feelings in any context. You feel how you feel. The things in your head are the things in your head. You can’t change either directly through sheer force of will. You can only change what you do. Stop beating yourself up for who and what you are right now–it isn’t productive. Focus on moving forward."