Selected as the alternate for a trial aka the LAST person to be selected for the Jury and I don’t even get to vote on anything I just have to spend the next few days of my life NOT doing all the things I need to do and instead sitting in a room talking about LAW STUFF.
I’m triple booked for stuff this Saturday. I’m triple booked all week. I’m triple booked in life and EVERYTHING IS SO HARD.
I think the hardest part is not knowing anything. Not knowing where I want to accept a job. Not knowing what M wants to do. Not knowing what my data for my thesis looks like. Not knowing how I’m going to do on the brewing diploma exam. Not knowing anything and nothing feels stable.
I had a lot of ~salted caramel core~ ice cream and one beer (albeit a GIANT beer) and things feel a little better. I don’t know how I’m going to do it all. I trust it will but at the same time I’m so scared it won’t.
Time to have a giant salad because that’s how health works.